ok, lots of stuff. and too much explanation, but this test was enlightening and amusing. it throws my silly phobias into sharp relief, and lets me think about where they originate, and which are logical and which aren't. read it! peer into my soul of souls!mwa ha ha ha!!


[ ] heights
[ ] clowns
[x] the dark (my one major phobia... gives me the screaming heebie jeebies)
[x] monsters (damn the imagination in my head)
[x] cars/car crashes (driving with people makes me so nervous)
[ ] planes
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] sharks (sharks live in water, there's water in my toilet)
[x] porcelain dolls/Barbie dolls (creepy! they watch me all the time...)
[ ] death (not a big deal. it happens eventually to everyone)
[ ] bears
[x] needles (poke into my flesh will ya! i think not!!)
[ ] blood (meh, it is inside me... might as well be afraid of my guts too!)
[ ] things hanging over head (like figuratively? yes. architectural overhangs? no.)
[x] being alone
[x] walking at night (combine dark and alone... yurk.)
[x] babysitting (i hate children. an babysitting sorta as we speak... save me.)
[x] growing up (never! assholes...)
[x] failure (worst fear. i am paralyzed by it...)
[x] success (but if i succeed, people will ask more of me and i will have more opportunity to fail)
[ ] ghosts
[ ] god/devil
[x] fighting (makes me want to cry and hide... please don't even raise your voice to me. confrontation of any kind is awful. makes me cry.)
[x] mom (goes with the confrontation thing.)
[ ] dad
[x] nightmares (being alone, in the dark, with monsters who are confronting me... eek!)
[x] rejection (i think it is a failure thing... i never think like social failure? i never feel like anyone likes me...)
[ ] angels
[ ] large spaces
[x] small spaces (just slightly... make me nervy)
[ ] cameras
[ ] spiders
[ ] snakes
[ ] thunder/lighting
[ ] germs
[ ] feet
[ ] doctors (and nurses)
[ ] bad luck
[ ] bees
[x] creepy noises (like in the dark? ah...)
[ ] trains
[ ] leaving home
[ ] bad weather
[ ] diseases (i don't believe in germs... frankly i don't think they exist.)
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] frogs
[ ] butterflies
[ ] alligators
[ ] being myself in public
[ ] staying single forever
[x] change (i get nervous about doing things differently... moving, new schools, new food...)
[ ] cats
[x] dogs (i hate when they jump on me)
[ ] ants
[x] wasps (they sting. i was phobic and paralyzed when i was young, but have gotten better.)
[ ] roaches
[x] police men (they always seem to think i have done something wrong... maybe because i look weird?)
[ ] short people
[ ] tall people
[ ] average people
[ ] falling in love
[ ] rabbits
[ ] rats/mice
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] being robbed
[ ] peanut butter
[ ] Halloween
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] school/work (i get so scared of failing in these places... and going to school sometimes is an insurmountable obstacle.)
[x] new places (a change related thing)
[ ] abandoned places (i love them unless they are dark or i am alone)
[x] becoming blind/deaf/mute (i see so many things, being without sight would remove the one thing that consistently keeps me sane)
[x] large crowds (claustrophobia thing i think.)
[ ] walking in the street
[ ] walking on the side walk
[ ] being to close to someone
[x] letting people close to you (a failure thing... what if i fail at friend?)